God grant me the ability to forgive everyone and everything I believe harmed me before this moment, to save and remember the things and people I believe helped to save me, and the wisdom to know and use the difference to be a better person.
I keep telling myself that it's OK to change direction. I keep telling myself that I don't have to stick to my original plan. I keep telling myself I will not be a failure if I do because I have accomplished so much already. I keep telling myself that if I get still, get focused, and do what I need to do that I will be able to see this all the way through. I don't want to disappoint my future by not keeping my promise to myself. I have decisions to make and a commitment to fulfill.
This particular change in direction is actually going to put me back on course.
The word for today is STEADFAST
1.fixed in direction; steadily directed
2.firm in purpose, resolution, faith, attachment, etc., as a person:
3.unwavering, as resolution, faith, adherence, etc.
4.firmly established, as an institution or a state of affairs.
5.firmly fixed in place or position.
I remember being so uncomfortable in silence. It still bothers me when it's not my choice to sit in it. I needed words, noise, music, background humming....something going on around me to feel "normal". I remember forcing myself to sit on my bed one day. I sat there for hours, mostly in silence. I made myself do it because I needed to know that I could. I needed to know that I could be still and comfortable in silence.
I'm always so busy moving and shaking and doing things and making things happen that it's challenging for me to choose to sit down and be quiet. I even fill my conversations with "uhms" and "uhs" to fill the empty spaces.
Today I decided to be as silent as possible. Very little words and no music for the day are my choices (until I leave work! LOL)
I don't know where this experiment came from or why I chose today but I'll take advantage of where I'm being led and learn from the outcome. Come to think about it, it started Saturday evening. I'm paying attention and am aware now!
THE WORD FOR TODAY IS SILENCE
The word for today is disease.
Comfort is missing.
Something difficult has disconnected you from your peace.
One solution for reconnection is forgiveness... of self, others, and situations.
The word for today is truth.....with no explanation. The truth does not need our support.
Sometimes children need to see their parents cry. They need to understand that they inflict pain on their parents. They don't need to see it to be manipulated. They need to see it so that they understand that their parents are human.
The word for today is Transparency.
Some of us don't want solutions.We say we do, but we really don't. We know we need them, but we just can't muster enough of whatever it takes to get them. We want pity. We want to pout. We want to be the victim. We want attention. Deep down inside we know it, but it doesn't change anything. We keep making the same choices over and over again. We don't do anything any differently and we scream that life is just too hard and too complicated. And we act bitterly toward people who have figured out that in order to have something different you have to do something different. We're comfortable with the familiar....as uncomfortable as it may get sometimes. We think it's better to have that then to venture into the unknown. But the unknown has limitless possibilities. And some of our joy and solutions live in the unknown.
Note to self:
"Replace Fear With Curiosity"
The word for today is CURIOSITY
The word for today is INSPIRATION.
I get inspiration from watching people live their dreams and ambitions. I get inspired when I watch people manifest their desires. I get inspired by art, creativity, music, positive people, beautiful things, and passionate feelings.
I've identified what inspires me because I need to know where to go when I feel "lost".
What inspires you? Where do you find inspiration?
The word for today is SELFISH. Depending on the situation it can be viewed in a positive light or a negative one. It's developed a negative connotation for most people.
When I care about you and do not care about me, it is not o.k.
When I care about me and do not care about you, it is not o.k.
When I care about me and still care about you, I am being selfish...and that's o.k.
The word for today is INTERCONNECTED. Without realizing it, we cause pain and strife and stress on ourselves. Any amount of negative energy we put into the world eventually comes back to us. We are all interconnected. What I do to you, someone eventually does to me.
I'm reminded today to be gentle with myself and others. For their sake and my own.
I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
Capturing the Past