I told myself I was little and I believed it. I told myself I wasn’t good enough and I believed it. I told myself I had to stay below the radar and I believed it. I’m confused about why we believe a lot of the negative things we secretly say and think to ourselves and fight so very hard to connect to the idea that we are greater than we believe. We forgot that we are light and when we are reminded we question and fight the notion because we believe in our darkness.
The quality of my life is based on the quality of my choices. This I know. I think I've gotten to the point in my life where I'm as aware of this as possible without applying it completely to my life. It's frustrating. The old me is scared to die. She's afraid to be replaced. She thinks she still has some years to be. She's like the house guest from hell. I think I need to file for an eviction and call the sheriff.
I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
Capturing the Past