I spent all of my life (with the exception of the last 3 months or so) disliking bananas. I didn't like the texture. I didn't like the smell or the taste. I didn't even like banana-flavored candy.
I spent most of my life (with the exception of the last 5-6 years or so) disliking watermelon. I think I might have had a bad batch as a kid and just never tried it again. I don't remember.
I tried a bright yellow banana a little while ago. It didn't have any bruises on the surface and it was very firm. I liked it. I spent my life not eating bananas because I thought they all tasted alike. The subtle difference in the firm, bright yellow ones won me over.
I started dousing my watermelon with fresh squeezed lemon juice a little while ago. I didn't add sugar either! It turned my learned like into an absolute adore.
The moral of the fruit lesson (for me) is that life can be delicious and enjoyable when I learn to tweak the things I think or know I don't like to make them into things I might love.
My previous inclination when the “world” tried to make me do anything was to crumble and fall. I would cower and then I would feel a surge of both inspiration and power and I would come out fighting….or at least ready myself for one. I understand this process. It’s previous programming. It’s not instinct. It’s learned behavior. It was a coping mechanism. The thing about coping mechanisms is that we trick ourselves into believing that they’re still applicable in our normal day to day. Knee-jerk reactions are a signal that I’m not existing in the now. Is the reaction even appropriate in the current situation? I don’t even think about it so I don’t question. I don’t choose. I give my power over to the past. I screw my face up when I realize that this is what my day-to-day experience has been. Knowing is both a gift and a curse.
I saw a sign that read “Change fear of the unknown into curiosity”. How empowering is that? Completely!
Carolyn Malachi combines straight-ahead Jazz, Hip Hop, Spoken Word, and lots of imagination. The independent, Grammy nominated artist and great-granddaughter of Jazz pianist John Malachi counts Yasiin Bey (formerly Mos Def), Radiohead, and Sarah Vaughan among her greatest influences. Says the Huffington Post of Carolyn Malachi’s ‘Onward and Upward’ approach to music, “She’s not waiting for some moment in the future.” Malachi promotes education through partnerships with the School Fund, U.S. Chamber of Commerce, FIAT and the Recording Academy. In 2013, Carolyn Malachi - the artist whom MTV calls “one of five R&B artists to obsess over this spring” - has released a new album, GOLD.
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I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
Capturing the Past