My previous inclination when the “world” tried to make me do anything was to crumble and fall. I would cower and then I would feel a surge of both inspiration and power and I would come out fighting….or at least ready myself for one. I understand this process. It’s previous programming. It’s not instinct. It’s learned behavior. It was a coping mechanism. The thing about coping mechanisms is that we trick ourselves into believing that they’re still applicable in our normal day to day. Knee-jerk reactions are a signal that I’m not existing in the now. Is the reaction even appropriate in the current situation? I don’t even think about it so I don’t question. I don’t choose. I give my power over to the past. I screw my face up when I realize that this is what my day-to-day experience has been. Knowing is both a gift and a curse.
I saw a sign that read “Change fear of the unknown into curiosity”. How empowering is that? Completely!
I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
Capturing the Past