The last 3 Sundays have been very interesting. Today was quiet. I spent a lot of time thinking about success and succeeding. That was the theme of the day. The last two Sundays have brought some hard, but necessary lessons on compassion, anger, openness, and being loving.
My inclination was to resist at first. Then I remembered that I started asking for an increase in compassion and patience and understanding. It hit me (hard) that all of this (perceived) hardship was really just opportunity to exercise my compassion, patience, and understanding muscles. That caused a shift. There was an evolution in my perspective. I realized that I was resisting what I have been asking for. This is what was causing me strife. It wasn't the people, it wasn't the experiences. It was the resistance.
And because I resisted what I was asking for, it persisted. It intensified. The opportunities increased. But I was looking at them incorrectly. I didn't see them as opportunities. I saw them as obstacles and annoyances. And persist and intensify they did...some more. It wasn't until I remembered...it wasn't until I recognized what was happening as the delivery of what I'd been requesting that I was able to relax. And once I relaxed....once I remembered, my experience opened up.
This is what Sundays have been for me recently. And it's been a beautiful thing.
I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
Capturing the Past