A quick chat conversation reminds me that I'm not hitting my reality target. On the outside looking in, I'm sure it looks like I'm doing the most. Sure, I'm busy. Sure, I get things done. But I'm into time management and I've always been aware of how and when I waste my own time. It's part of the reason I'm so resentful when other people waste my time. I can't control them. I can, however, control me. I try to watch myself from the outside and well.......
...it frightens me how often I can get distracted by shiny things or by my own life. I have a mission. I procrastinate on that mission. I desire success. I undermine that success by not pressing forward. I'm not alone. I know I'm not. I'm further along than where I was. I admit that I lack discipline. I'm too old for this shit. I'm even more TOO OLD to still be talking about this.
I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
Capturing the Past