I was reflecting on my BlogTalkRadio show this morning and realized that I really have a ton of love, admiration, and respect for Dyon Davidson. She is the epitome of pushing through. Click the play button and jump to the 10:00 minute mark to listen to her story.
A quick chat conversation reminds me that I'm not hitting my reality target. On the outside looking in, I'm sure it looks like I'm doing the most. Sure, I'm busy. Sure, I get things done. But I'm into time management and I've always been aware of how and when I waste my own time. It's part of the reason I'm so resentful when other people waste my time. I can't control them. I can, however, control me. I try to watch myself from the outside and well.......
...it frightens me how often I can get distracted by shiny things or by my own life. I have a mission. I procrastinate on that mission. I desire success. I undermine that success by not pressing forward. I'm not alone. I know I'm not. I'm further along than where I was. I admit that I lack discipline. I'm too old for this shit. I'm even more TOO OLD to still be talking about this.
My highlight of the week came on Thursday this week. I participated in the #300MenMarch Occupy Our Corners Movement. I took my youngest with me so that she could see firsthand what it looks like when black men love and protect their space. She needed to see that. Too often, our children see black men in their worst light. They see them addicted. They seem them frustrated. They see them downtrodden. They see them breaking the law. They see them in caskets or in jail.
Thursday night was different. Munir Bahar is the head behind the #300MenMarch movement. It has not come without criticism. People don't believe that presence alone is enough. Please don't believe that marching is effective. To those people I say, if you are not part of the solution, you are part of the problem. If it doesn't make sense to you, that's fine. Just make sure YOU are doing something that you believe that can make an impact. Because everyone can talk. Everyone does not step up to the challenge, however, when it is time to act.
I spent the rest of the evening pretty much on quiet time. I reflected on the notion "If your people are not encouraging you to be a revolutionary, they are encouraging you to be a slave" until I fell asleep. And I slept well. I told a few brothers about the movement. I recommend for people to get involved. If not this, something. We are hurting in these streets and are one escalated argument away from possibly losing our lives.
The ladies from The Divas' D.I.S.H. and I co- sponsored Dubscience Photography's event Looking From The Outside In Exhibition at The Living Well. The #BaltimoreGirls represented. There were live performances and a photography exhibit. It was awesome.
I went to the Organic Soul Tuesday Reunion. I hosted the Beadly Speaking Auction. I facilitated the Perspectives Women & Men's Rap Session. I attended the Thomas/Holly Wedding where my sister E. Wonder. The Divas' DISH and I hosted The Coochie Chronicles - If These Walls Could Talk. E. Wonder and I co-hosted #Ineffable Dream. And then E. Wonder and I had a photo shoot with Nell.
I sometimes feel like these updates don't really capture the epicness of the events I participate in. I'll have to do something about that.
AND the fact that August is almost over and I'm just catching up with the end of July is just......wheeew chile.
I'm Ellen Gee. When I'm honest, we learn things. When I'm not, we learn things too.
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